Monday, December 21, 2009

Today He is 4 Months Old!

It amazes me how slow the last few months of pregnancy are. The excitement, the tiredness, and the anticipation of the arrival of a new baby. The months slowly tick by, counting months turns into counting weeks, which soon turns into counting days. BUT then you have the bundle of joy and you finally get a chance to look up and BAM...he is now 4 months old. WHAT? 4 months? NO, surely that can't be, it was just yesterday that I brought him home from the hospital. Man, where did the last few months go? What has happened to time standing still? This can't be, he can't be 4 months old...then I look over and that tiny 6 lb baby I brought home is now sitting in his Bumbo chair watching his brothers play. What is that I hear, he is laughing at them. He can't be old enough to just laugh at those crazy brothers. But why does this surprise me, as I am looking at those 2 crazy brothers, I begin to realize, that when you blink, one is in school and the other is turning 2 (more on that little big guy in days to come). Just a few things to know about this 4 month old. Ryker is...

  • Rolling over

  • Sleeping through the night!!!!! 4 stars from MOM on this one!

  • Eating at least 6-7 oz at each feeding.

  • Laughing at anyone that looks at him

  • Extremely ticklish

  • Grabs anything in arms reach- straight to the mouth

  • Starting to coo- love this one.

Well, happy 4 Months Old Ryker Sutton. Mommy loves you! Can't wait for more NEW things!

Love you,


Sunday, December 20, 2009

Merry Christmas

Wishing each of you a Merry Christmas and a Very Safe and Happy New Year!

Saturday, December 5, 2009

Better and Better

It does not take a genius to realize how quickly life changes. The last few months my life has been in a constant state of change. I have added a new addition to my family and lost one. I have learned to be a Trooper's wife. I have learned to juggle three boys on my own when needed. I have learned to give that student that forgot his homework for the third time this week a break because HE does not have parents at home that make sure he has finished it. I have learned laughter is less tiring than anger. I have learned to be still and listen. I have learned to move quickly because life changes so fast. I have learned that life will change whether it is wanted or not. I have learned that I have the ability to live life with grace, patience, and love. I have so many blessings and opportunities that many just hope and wish for. I have the chance to make a difference in so many little lives each and everyday. As Christmas gets closer and I think about my family, my life, and the choices I get to make everyday, I am thankful that I have Christ as my example. As the new year approaches I hope to gain wisdom, knowledge, and strength to be a better example for others, for my husband, and for my kids. I hope I leave each person I come in contact with a little happier than they were before. I pray I will make a positive difference in the lives of people around me.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009


Yesterday was a bittersweet day for my family. After several years of non complaining pain, my Grandmother went to live with the Lord. Her pain was finally relieved and her happiness was GREAT! My Grandmother lived her life to the fullest. She was a loving wife, a devoted mother, and a FANTASTIC Grandma. Her heart was big enough for 6 kids and their spouses, 15 grand kids, and 9 great-grand kids. I was always greeted at the door of her house with a huge smile and open arms.
I received a package in the mail a few weeks ago, and inside was a quilt she had made for Ryker. Even though her hands were frail and in a tremendous amount of pain, she made the most beautiful quilt for my baby. Her love and thoughtfulness were stronger than her pain.
I will miss my Grandmother's hugs, I will miss my Grandma's smile, and I will miss my Grandma's voice on the other end of the phone, BUT most of all I will miss my Grandma's love. Without words, she taught me to be kind, and loving in ALL situations. My grandmother was an amazing woman, I am proud to be her Granddaughter!!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Where am I? What am I doing?

Am I coming, OR am I going? I am not sure right now. I wake up most mornings before everyone else in our house. I get ready for school, kiss my kids (and husband) goodbye, and I am off to work. Levi and I smile at each other over the coffee pot (if he is up), and quickly go our separate ways. Our schedules are so opposite, I work days, he works nights. He watches the boys while I am at work and I watch the boys while he is at work. It works out great for our kids because they have one of us there MOST of the time. As for the husband and I, well, I miss him. We both try to devote as much time to our kids as we can to make up for the hours we spend away from them. As previous math teachers, we both realized very quickly that 3 divided by 2 just does not come out perfect, there is always a remainder. We have very little time if any for each other. And yet, I feel like we have never been closer. We work so well together. Our time together is not used for fighting, but for catching up, laughing, and just being glad that we are finally in the same room together.
We have been so busy the last few weeks that I feel as though my head is spinning. I spend the day thinking, what am I supposed to do, what did I forget to do, when is that due. I miss my time at home. I miss waking up and knowing that TODAY I am going to spend it with my boys. I miss knowing that I am going to be the one that gets them dressed. I am the one that gets to hang out with them. I am the one that gets to drop them off at school. I miss KNOWING exactly what happened today because I was THERE. It has been good for Levi to spend the days with the boys. His shifts leave very little time to just be with them. His days off are so important to him and to them. I am very grateful that he can do this.
Okay, enough poor me...well one more poor me. Last weekend, we made our annual trip to the OSU TTU game. I knew I should not go, I knew it was not good. BUT I went anyway. And well, WE LOST! We ALWAYS lose when I go watch them in Stillwater. We have never won a game there as long as we have been going. I did it to myself! I want to say sorry to my RED RAIDERS! I knew and yet, I went anyway. Levi and I know that no matter what happens, one of us is going to have a very long trip home. Just so happens, IT was! (for me anyway). Guess there is always next year, man that is forever!!!!!! We have a tradition in our house, that if your team loses, you have to turn your stocking around. I guess I will do the turn of shame and turn My TTU stocking backwards this year and his OSU stocking, well, I will have to look at that darn thing ALL through Christmas. I WAS going to have a red and black Christmas tree this year, but it might clash with that Orange and Black thing hanging on our mantle. UGH

I guess I will go take a deep breath and figure out, what I am - should be doing.

OH...the boys are doing GREAT!

Hudsen has Open House Thursday and is excited to show us what he has been working on.

Story about Hudsen. I told him to go outside and play because I needed to talk to Daddy, he looked at me and said, "Why, are you pregnant!" What a kid. And NO I am not.

Gannon is speaking in sentences. He LOVES gum or num as he says! He is so happy if he has gum. He can be having the worst moment, and you give him gum and he is instantly the happiest kid in the world. Funny story about Gannon. He was eating carmel candy and kept asking me "mama, where num go? He would get another one, chew it, look very upset and say "Mama where num go?" LOVE HIM

Ryker is weighing in at 11oz. Eats all the time, sleeps through the night, and has the most adorable smile that you can see from across the room. He is trying to talk and wants nothing more than to be held by his parents.


Monday, November 2, 2009

What a Sad Sad Day

Today was the BIG day. After 9 cherished weeks at home with Ryker, I did the unthinkable,...I set the alarm clock. Punching in 6:00 am was not the greatest or most anticipated moment of my life, but I managed to get it done. (Wishful thinking, Ryker not waking up before then). Last night I rocked that poor little thing until HE could not stand it. He wanted in his bed and he wanted it NOW. So I carried him to his room and well, sat on the bed and held him some more. He finally gave in and let me hold him for a few minutes longer. You would think I was going on a trip or something. I finally put him down, walked out of the room, crying of course, and did what any sane mom would do. I went right to the bathroom, grabbed the box of hair color and dyed my hair. (A little too dark, but I think it will fade quickly).
After messing with the new hair, I decided I better try and get some sleep. I crawled into bed, and well, I had no trouble sleeping. I slept great until 4:30, yep, 4:30. What do you do, it is around 5 o'clock, the alarm goes off at you try and get that last hour of sleep KNOWING you will be more tired when you get up, OR do you just stay up and pray you aren't asleep at your desk before noon. Well, I got back in bed...almost asleep and guess who wakes up, THE BABY. I rolled over, and told the Husband that it was his turn, and I fell fast asleep, I was shocked when the alarm went off that I really did it, I fell back asleep, AMAZING!
Levi and I managed to get all 3 kids dressed, and in the car before 7:30, WE ARE AWESOME!! and I was at work by 7:35! I did it, I made it to work! I made it through the morning, I made it through the afternoon, I DID it! Now, if I can do it again. UGH!!! Good thing about the rest of the week, Levi will be home to take care of the kids. I love his days off! I am going to BED! Oh wait, what is that I hear, yep it's the BABY! Bed can and will wait!

Friday, October 9, 2009

Where Does the Time Go?

Wow! Where did my maternity leave go? I have about 2 more weeks before I go back to work. This is such a hard thing this time around. I have enjoyed being home with the boys the last few weeks. I love sleeping in (oh, staying in my pjs) and not rushing to get ready. I love hanging out with them in the mornings. This might be weird, but I love taking Hudsen to school. I feel like a real stay at home mom getting to do all the things that my WONDERFUL babysitter does for me. Normally I would be going a little crazy staying home everyday, but this time is different, maybe its because I know (I hope) this is my last baby. When Gannon was this age, I needed to go back to work because Levi was at the Academy and I needed to take my mind off of him being gone. Ryker is such a snuggle bug and I am going to miss that so much.

There are always good things that follow the not so good things and one of them being that I will be at school WITH Hudsen. I do miss waiting for him to walk into my classroom at the end of the day. Everyday, I am shocked that my baby is big enough to be coming to my classroom from his. His days are always filled with the excitement of centers, library time, computer lap (that's what he calls it), and of course, RECESS.

Gannon too is getting big. I love watching his little legs walk towards me at the end of the day. He always has a smile for me when I pick him up. It might not stay a smile, but there is always a brief moment that hey, that's my mama. The kid is talking up a storm. Words are flying out of this little man that I once thought would never speak. A couple days ago, he climbed on my chair in the bathroom, picked up my nail polish and began singing like he was holding a mic. What a wonderful mama moment. Of course, no camera handy.

Ryker has started really noticing things around him. The melt your Mama's heart smile that comes from that little thing looking up at me and realizing it is his Mommy. Those are the times that I will miss the most when I am working. He is not the best sleeper at night, but I guess that just gives us a few extra HOURS of Mommy Ryker time.

Everyone told me that 3 kids was not a big thing after having 2. They said "It's just one more to throw into the mix." That was a LIE! Three kids adds about 1 hour to bath time at night, 30 extra minutes getting ready in the morning and 15 trying to get everyone in the car and buckled up. Sometimes I wish I could just throw them all the back of the car like my parents did to us. That is probably not a good idea, their Trooper of a Daddy might not like that so much. I am thankful that they are all boys and as of now, they don't really care about their hair or what they are wearing.

I am so thankful that I was given one more chance to stay at home with another wonderful little baby.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Our Family is Complete!

Ryker Sutton Hill joined our family Friday August 21, 2009 at 1:05 pm. Ryker's daddy and I dropped our two oldest boys off at the babysitter and once again made the 30 minute trip to the hospital to welcome another son. Amazing how quiet our rides to the hospital are, each of us sitting there just wondering how another addition to our family will change how our "normal" day to day lives will change. We got to the room changed into my beautiful hospital gown and just like that, things were underway. Nurses and doctors flooded our room with questions and all that procedure "stuff" that comes with having a baby. I have had a different experience delivering each of my boys, Hudsen- water broke in the middle of the night, Gannon-induced, and Ryker C-Section. I don't believe I was anymore anxious with this one than with the other two-Levi, a little different story. I could tell he was a little worried, even though he would never say it out loud. Just before 1:00 I went in and at 1:05 our beautiful Ryker was born. I have been so blessed to once again have the most amazing experience of giving birth to another baby. The sound of Ryker's cry brought tears to my eyes and a flood of love through my heart. I was once again given the opportunity to raise one of God's most prized possessions.Ryker joining our family has now made us complete. After 8 days of watching him sleep and eat and just look around, I am so in awe of how fast he is changing and how much we all love having him here with us. Hudsen, wow, is great. He makes sure that the baby knows that his big brother will make it okay. Gannon, wakes up every morning and runs to the living room says "babies" and runs right to Ryker's bed. Looks at him and says "babies". The kisses are endless, our boys love giving their baby brother lots and lots of kisses. I am so proud of them.What a blessing my life is, a wonderful husband that just adores our boys, loves and protects me, and everyday is a Great Christian Daddy and Husband. Three healthy boys that when they smile, there is no greater joy or feeling at that very moment. I sometimes wonder how I got to be so lucky to have been blessed by God to live the life that I live, but I do know that I will do everything I can to take care of and love the greatest gifts He could have possibly given to me. Levi, Hudsen, Gannon, Ryker and I are now a thankful family of FIVE!

Sunday, July 12, 2009

Waiting and Waiting

T-Ball is over, 5 more swimming lessons, and a few more doctor appointments. Other than that, we are all just waiting for Ryker to join our family.
Hudsen has been very busy this summer. We started T-ball in June, he did great! He even had the chance to play up and play on a Machine Pitch team a time or two. I was a nervous wreck. He loved playing catcher, scared his dad and I, but he loved it. He is now taking swimming lessons. He is a little fish and not the same color he was when the summer began. He loves the water. He is excited about starting Kindergarten in a month or so.
Gannon...oh, what to say about Gannon. He is very busy running this house. I can't seem to keep up with him right now. I am not sure that I ever will be. He is one you have to watch carefully. Just the other day, Hudsen brought him in from outside crying. Hudsen said he fell on a Popsicle stick. After calling his Dr. at 8:00 at night and taking him in to see the Dr. we found out that he sliced, yes sliced, his left tonsil completely in half. Dr. said 1/2 cm over and we could have lost him. The only thing that saved him was his tonsil. What a kid! He walks around the house asking "What is it?" "Whose that?" and just when I thought I knew all his words, he pointed at Levi and said, "back!" He was on top of the kitchen counter and did NOT want his daddy to get him down. His favorite thing right now is going outside and playing with Pebble, our dog. We took the stairs off the playset to keep him off the top, but now he just climbs up the slide. All I can say is "I hope Ryker is ready for Gannon."
Levi has been working hard this summer trying to keep people safe. Summer is a busy time on the roads. We see him once in awhile, when he comes home to eat.
I have cleaned out all the kitchen cabinets, moved the beds and cleaned under them. Moved the furniture in our bedroom to clean the floors, and it seems I am doing the dishes every five minutes. Guess, I am trying to get ready for the baby. Now, if I only knew where to put the baby. School starts soon so I guess in a few weeks I will start thinking about that.
I guess summer is no longer a time of rest for the Hill family. Seems we are busier now than we are during the school year. I wouldn't trade it for anything!

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

And One Makes...3 Boys!

I had decided I would change my blog color according to the gender of our baby. So looks like this blog will stay BLUE! Levi, Hudsen, and I went to the doctor this morning. It was like going for the very first time. I was so excited and anxious. I did not think that the third time of going in to find out what I was having would be as exciting as it was. The minute the doctor began the sono, I went from what is it, to what a beautiful looking baby this is. As I looked at the screen my heart started to beat a little faster and I began to thank God that this baby, boy or girl, looked absolutely beautiful. I wanted to know more about its health than the gender. After looking at and measuring many body parts, the Dr. finally asked the question...Do you want to know what it is? Yes!! With one movement of his hand, I knew, another boy! Once you have seen it once, twice, and now three times, you know instantly that you are having another boy. The excitement was almost overshadowed by the heartbreak on Hudsen's face. He has said from the beginning that he wanted a little sister. NO more BOYS! But, being the AWESOME big brother that he is, he said, "oh he looks good!" "I like the picture of him holding his hand over his eyes, don't you?" I am so proud of him and think he is the BEST big brother that any 2 boys could ask or hope for. As for boy #3's Daddy, HUGE smile and I think a little laugh as well. I never thought of myself as a mommy of 3, and now I am so PROUD to be the Mommy of three beautiful BOYS! I thank God everyday for loving and trusting me enough to take care of these little guys!

Friday, April 17, 2009

The Hills Plus ONE

I decided I would try this blogging thing out. I am going to do my best to keep you updated on what is going on with this crazy family of ours.
I guess first things first...We are going to find out what baby number 3 is in about 2 weeks on April 29th. I am very excited and anxious to find out what our baby is. Hudsen wants a girl because he does not think he will have to share any more of his toys with her (girls don't like boy toys is what he says.) Gannon, though small and still our baby, I think does know something is happening. He has turned into quite the mama's boy lately. I love all the snuggles and kisses I am getting lately. I am trying to take in him being my baby for as long as I can. It is hard for me to imagine him not being the baby of our family. He will, I believe, be a great big brother just like Hudsen is to him.
Levi is keeping busy with work and seems to love what he does. I am enjoying the freedom his job allows for him to come home and help when needed. Although the 4:00 am phone calls are still hard to adjust to. We are managing well with his schedule. It seems to me that we have a lot more family time now than we did while he was coaching. I guess those 3 days off help.
School is almost over for Hudsen and I. Hudsen went to the Kindergarten room last week to visit his new classroom for next year. I can't believe he will be in Kindergarten already. He is growing up so fast. It is amazing how he can carry on an entire conversation at the dinner table with us. I love listening to his stories and am shocked at how well his vocabulary is increasing.
Our family has adjusted to many changes this year and can't wait for our additional change in a few months. I will try and keep you posted on what the Hills plus one are up to.